2017
video
5:47
I’m too afraid to take a chance
That stupid dream
About getting things better
About sorting things out
In a wonderful way
I can’t help to fail
I watch my life
getting
worse
I hope things will change
but I don’t change myself
fear fear fear
This video shows a distressing process of inmost growth.
A girl wearing a ridiculous masquerade is meant to show how people wear other people’s expectations about them like dresses. The suit fits her no more, she now more herself than ever before.
Ugly and awkward, the rags distort and misrepresent her, but she has nothing else to put on. She keeps walking, fighting her shame. The bags taken from a low-cost shop symbolize the scantness of means at her disposal, be it material ones or whatever else. The bags containing her goals, wishes, and dreams, are somewhat heavy for her to carry. With great effort, she bears them into uncertainty. There no one waiting for her ahead,
She keeps walking on her own, overcoming her fear.
She walks because she can’t stay.
Never will she do the same things to herself again. Pride.
